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"RANT OF FEELINGS"
The reason that I stop doing Joha's Witness is family issues. My
brother didn't know the truth. My brother said that the church that I went
to was A cult. My brother also said, that it was OK to make A mistake,
but that wasn't A mistake. My brother just didn't know the truth. That
was very very hard to do this. It's still is, cause I like the people there.
Leaving all of them was the hardest. I had to do this, because if I didn't,
my brother wouldn't have anything to do with me. I'm OK with this, but
this wasn't A mistake. Every Thursday, the cab don't get at the house on
time, due to poor transportation, or traffic. I know that it is hard to
be in traffic. But sometime the cab Company just forgot to put this in
their computers. It's probably there, but there always busy with their
hardwork, so they forget. So It's hard for me to schedule something that
is important to me. When some people want me to do things fast, like pushing
me to do things right now. I have to think A little before I wright. Bruce!!!!
try to remember this, please don't push me. I have to think before I wright
anything. This gets me A little upset, and angry at people at this. I know
you probably don't mean to do this, but I have feelings to. I don't like
to be rushed like that Bruce. I don't like the fact of this, If you plan
on something, it sometimes gets squid up. I wish this problem gets fixed,
but wishful thinking. It's frustrating to get every thing in the right
place. This makes me mad. Mon. Tues. Wed, and Fri, the cab comes on time
at my house. Just every Thursday it doesn't come on time. It's just something
about Thursdays that the cab don't get their on time. So like I said, you
can't plan anything because of the cab, and poor transportation. When you're
traveling on the road were cars are, sometimes when the light gets green,
cars just stop on green and they won't go. They don't know how to drive
here in Lexington right. And also, they cut through without looking. They
just don't care. They just care about themselves. And of you get in A wreck,
tough luck. Another thing is. When you talk to A person in A normal voice,
they sometimes hear wrong. Like when I was going in the group at Coconuts,
I asked the staff that I went out with as A group to go sit on the bench,
but she misunderstood what I said. I didn't want to go with her in the
first place. I don't like this. This makes me feel that I can't talk to
some people without being misunderstood anymore. I can't explain or talk
to them right without misunderstanding me. They only want to hear what
they want to hear. I take the time to talk to them right but, I don't know.
They just won't listen in the right way. Sometimes I feel, if I'm gone,
then I won't be A bothersome to some people. Then I realize that if I was
to be gone, then life wouldn't be fulfilled. I have to struggle with some
people on this. It's frustration. There's A lounge at Coconuts I go their
sometimes to be alone. When I go upstairs to the lounge there's some people
their to, but the lounge is A quiet place to be sometimes. I wish that
I could stay their until 4:00., but the group starts back at 1:00. Maybe
it would be nice if I was gone. I guess. Don't worry, I won't do this,
not yet. This is just how I feel, for real.
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DIARY BY MEG PIKE the spirits are aroused
Meg Pike is an artist at Mind’s Wide Open Art Center in Lexington,
Kentucky.
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COMFORT
When I
might not
be able to get
comfort
around
others
then a
best friend
is always
nice to
have
Joyce Abell 1999
BABIES TO TODDLERS
Babies are cute, cuddly, huggable, fun, lovable, playful, chaseable, and funny.
They talk cute,
They want everything in the world.
They will bug you to death and sometimes they will drive you up the wall,
But you'll love them anyway.
They catch on at early stages once they start to talk,
And sometimes they talk so much you'll almost lose your patience with them,
But you have to get your patience back quickly.
A baby depends on you because they are a part of you.
They need to be taught right from wrong and to respect you and other people,
They need to know proper manners.
There's no end to what they can do.
Joyce Abell 1999
LAID OFF
Down time is prior to being laid off.
It means no money from trees or the ground,
So when you have no money off the trees or ground,
It is because you have been robbed from the cradle to the crop.
It means no clothes on the "bod"-body,
No shoes or socks in your soles.
No hats or gloves,
No eyeglasses,
Maybe no food and no food to put in the car.
So you starve,
And the car goes to it's grave.
Joyce Abell 1999
- Have You Ever Been Really Hungry?
